Life changes. People change.

Time really flies. Its Sunday again. On Monday I went to shopping with Vicks, she is the mother of this family. And I got a silly idea to dye my white eyebrows and lashes. When I saw my face in the mirror I wanted to cry, I looked like a clown. If u dont know how a clown looks like u can google it. When I got home I tried to wash them off, but ofc it didnt go. But on Wednesday I got new hair color as well. And i fell in love with my clown eyelashes and brows. So it was not so silly idea anymore. I had never died my hair before. 21 years with really blonde hair. So it was a big change. But I love these so much. I have heard very different comments about them. I dont really mind if someone doesnt like it cos I do like them a lot! It was a shock for many ppl. I think I look prettier and more girly, not as a tomboy that I was. Now I can wear more girly clothes, I am so happy for that! And now nobody comes to ask me why all of my hair is white.

Old look and new look.. 

I had such a nice weekend. On Friday I talked with my dad first time after I told them about my decision. And I feel much better now and so much happier. Heini, my au pair friend came around. I like her so much, I havent known her for long. But she is that kinda person u know u click with her. I got another friend from Finland to visit and ofc some finnish sweets and chocolate. Yum! 

On Saturday we all went to London to see Camden Town and some tourist stuff, as Tower Bridge etc. And we met Warwick Davis!! He acted Filius Flitwick in Harry Potter movies. He was sooo sweet and cute! Even thought he is different than most of ppl he looked so happy. Respect! Actually I didnt recognize him but when we got home we realized it was him. Heini came to sleep over as well. We all three slept in my bed, and that was not so great idea. Almost all night we just laughed and when we went out we were as three Angry birds. But anyway it was pretty fun tho. I havent laughed that much for ages. The more u laugh the longer u live, if that is true I am gonna live forever. 

I just got home. We were in Stratford for some shopping. Shopping in high heels is killing. I dont recommend to try that. I love autumn so much.

my apologize.

I apologize I havent post anything for a while. I would give u an excuse but I dont really have one. I dont even have any pics. Things r pretty well here tho. I have been thinking about life for pretty long time and finally I was brave and made a decision. I dont say Im really proud of the decision I made. But I can say Im really proud cos I still made it. Its not easy to leave behind the most important thing of ur life. I feel so much more free and comfortable about that cos dont need to live in lies anymore, and hide anything. Now I can be me and be honest for myself and other ppl. I made so many ppl sad and I am really sorry for that but I still think we all r here just for ourselves. We dont live for anyone else.

In last couple weeks here has happened quite strange things. Not things, a thing I mean. So many ppl here have asked me how old I am, do I go to college, can they see my ID. Its really confusing, and when I tell them I am 21 they r like oh r u sure.. Oh man ofc I am sure I was born on the 18th of July 21 years ago. They think I am 16. Maybe cos I dont really wear make up, and some ppl think being blonde is kinda innocent. But anyway that kinda make me such happy, better to look 16 than to be 21 and look like 50.

I got amazing plans for the weekend btw. I am going to see my friend up to Leeds. I have never been there before, its one of the biggest cities of England. And I heard its much better and different than London. So I am really curious to see what it is like.

Today happened more strange things. I was doing something I dont really do alot. I was surfing on Youtube and found myself watching the videos of two such cute british guys. They r twins. I have never been a fan of anyone, yeah i know its really boring. And Tadambadaa I became a fan of them! It happened really quickly tho. In the morning I had no clue who they r.. U guys have to check them out! They r JacksGap, Jack and Finn Harris.

I promise I try to post more

E xx

I was just trying to find my place in this world. and I think I finally found it.

The longer I stay here the more sure I am about where I wanna be. Ppl keep asking and wondering why I dont wanna stay here, do I have a guy over there, better money or trying to forget some not so good memories. Its nothing like that. But I didnt find a good answer yet. I love my life in England so why I should stay in Finland. I feel like I can live my own life over there, do things that I like and be me. I still have my freedom so why shall I live not using it. I dont think the place u was born is the place for u. Ofc it might be but anyway I think wherever u r happy however u wanna live its ur choice, do whatever u feel right for urself. Everybody should have a happy life. Thats the only life we can get. If u do it right one life is enough. One day I might change my mind then I cange my place. Simple, isnt it. Yea, the good things of being single. I can live for myself not for anybody else. So lets be what we r and do what we wanna do. Not what others expect us to do. Lets be happy!