my apologize.

I apologize I havent post anything for a while. I would give u an excuse but I dont really have one. I dont even have any pics. Things r pretty well here tho. I have been thinking about life for pretty long time and finally I was brave and made a decision. I dont say Im really proud of the decision I made. But I can say Im really proud cos I still made it. Its not easy to leave behind the most important thing of ur life. I feel so much more free and comfortable about that cos dont need to live in lies anymore, and hide anything. Now I can be me and be honest for myself and other ppl. I made so many ppl sad and I am really sorry for that but I still think we all r here just for ourselves. We dont live for anyone else.

In last couple weeks here has happened quite strange things. Not things, a thing I mean. So many ppl here have asked me how old I am, do I go to college, can they see my ID. Its really confusing, and when I tell them I am 21 they r like oh r u sure.. Oh man ofc I am sure I was born on the 18th of July 21 years ago. They think I am 16. Maybe cos I dont really wear make up, and some ppl think being blonde is kinda innocent. But anyway that kinda make me such happy, better to look 16 than to be 21 and look like 50.

I got amazing plans for the weekend btw. I am going to see my friend up to Leeds. I have never been there before, its one of the biggest cities of England. And I heard its much better and different than London. So I am really curious to see what it is like.

Today happened more strange things. I was doing something I dont really do alot. I was surfing on Youtube and found myself watching the videos of two such cute british guys. They r twins. I have never been a fan of anyone, yeah i know its really boring. And Tadambadaa I became a fan of them! It happened really quickly tho. In the morning I had no clue who they r.. U guys have to check them out! They r JacksGap, Jack and Finn Harris.

I promise I try to post more

E xx